Further details on my fantasies about Central Asia / Eastern Europe and obsessions with getting there to find a girl

So many hours staring at those maps!!! 💞💞💞

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Dec 11, 2024

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my compass tattoo and “radar” by phoebe bridgers (holy fuck)

eloise-hypatia daniella

December 10, 2024

my compass tattoo and “radar” by phoebe bridgers (holy fuck)

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how Hannah’s yearning for Daniella caused me to study Central Asia and end up writing about the Kushans (bright eyes, the decemberists, and the facilitation of my fantasies)

eloise-hypatia daniella

December 10, 2024

how Hannah’s yearning for Daniella caused me to study Central Asia and end up writing about the Kushans (bright eyes, the decemberists, and the facilitation of my fantasies)

“The night before, Hannah had bought a one-way ticket from Yerevan to Frankfurt. She said she was going to work her way over land from Germany to Armenia.💖 snowflakeangelbutterfly 💖 is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber.

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2017: Kyrgyzstan

the Black Sea: the first place I remember sensing a third presence 💖 was it Claire?

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December 11, 2024

the Black Sea: the first place I remember sensing a third presence 💖 was it Claire?

Physical world:

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dream swirl with claire? did I embed my dreams into her and did she do the same to me? (did I tell Claire via dream world I was in Freiburg?) (did Claire tell me to go to India in 2010/3? Kyrgyzstan?)

December 10, 2024

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the kushan empire demonstrates the wiggly reality (a fusion of “east” and “west”)

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November 24, 2024

the kushan empire demonstrates the wiggly reality (a fusion of “east” and “west”)

special thank you to Craig Benjamin, my bodhisattva of history ❤️ (never met him ❤️)

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how Hannah’s yearning for Daniella caused me to study Central Asia and end up writing about the Kushans (bright eyes, the decemberists, and the facilitation of my fantasies)

eloise-hypatia daniella

December 10, 2024

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why Daniella pushes east: she herself, being me, is infected by my dreams of going to Central Asia to find a girl; which I only have because of Daniella’s time in Central Asia and Hannah’s search

eloise-hypatia daniella

December 10, 2024

why Daniella pushes east: she herself, being me, is infected by my dreams of going to Central Asia to find a girl; which I only have because of Daniella’s time in Central Asia and Hannah’s search

Hannah replicates my experience in Freiburg: in many ways but not all, Hannah is me in Freiburg: a happier version of me, but still she stands in for many of my experiences and even replicates my trips. Hence her fantasies about Daniella bled into me: remember eventually Hannah effectively merges with me.

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My birthing ritual worked: how Daniella was born under a Virgo sky: didn’t I say I was a star going supernova? 💖 that baby developed amidst a LOT of sexual energy: that might explain my sexual desire

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December 11, 2024

My birthing ritual worked: how Daniella was born under a Virgo sky: didn’t I say I was a star going supernova? 💖 that baby developed amidst a LOT of sexual energy: that might explain my sexual desire

my obsession with Romania explained:

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Further details on my fantasies about Central Asia / Eastern Europe and obsessions with getting there to find a girl

So many hours staring at those maps!!! 💞💞💞

my compass tattoo and “radar” by phoebe bridgers (holy fuck)

how Hannah’s yearning for Daniella caused me to study Central Asia and end up writing about the Kushans (bright eyes, the decemberists, and the facilitation of my fantasies)

the Black Sea: the first place I remember sensing a third presence 💖 was it Claire?

dream swirl with claire? did I embed my dreams into her and did she do the same to me? (did I tell Claire via dream world I was in Freiburg?) (did Claire tell me to go to India in 2010/3? Kyrgyzstan?)

the kushan empire demonstrates the wiggly reality (a fusion of “east” and “west”)

how Hannah’s yearning for Daniella caused me to study Central Asia and end up writing about the Kushans (bright eyes, the decemberists, and the facilitation of my fantasies)

why Daniella pushes east: she herself, being me, is infected by my dreams of going to Central Asia to find a girl; which I only have because of Daniella’s time in Central Asia and Hannah’s search

My birthing ritual worked: how Daniella was born under a Virgo sky: didn’t I say I was a star going supernova? 💖 that baby developed amidst a LOT of sexual energy: that might explain my sexual desire

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