love is a feeling that arises when Caroline enters my mind (Naomi Novik?) (the notebook: about Caroline?) (Full Moon) (Dharma Eye) (Caroline: Princess Anna of Byzantium) (Caroline the Goddess Tara)
a feeling captured precisely in the moment
is Naomi Novik writing stories about us ?
fertility stones? Caroline in the dream world?
How much I love you (17:55 est, December 20, 2024)
The clairvoyant effect of me sending Caroline a message on Facebook
above: riverside park
is the notebook about me and Caroline?
it’ll all work out — about me and Caroline?
Dreams about seeing Caroline
figuring out who caroline’s other reincarnation is… with Caroline? My ultimate dream
(18:02 est, December 19, 2024)
love is a feeling that arises when
(17:19 est, December 18, 2024)
Tara, protector of travelers! 💖
Spiritual travel too! 💞
Nov 25?
Yes, nov 25 💖
Wow. Caroline’s birthday and me. 💖
the doggie that led me to Caroline?
It’s just just the moon! It’s our anniversary too that gives me vision!
More on Valens
Republished with recording:
August 12:
September 12:
October 12:
November 12:
December 12:
The true reality in Caroline’s eyes:
moon correlations:
Finding Princess Anna in the dream world:
Caroline’s book, her time as a Byzantine princess, and my essays today:
reflection
Wings of the dove? 💖
Interesting date - proximity to a special day 💞
More books read in run-up to our anniversary
the power 💖
After the Power: Caroline and her clairvoyant impact — did I see Caroline again in the ancient world?
Caroline — a princess in an ancient matriarchy?
Diwali 2023 and my views on Israel:
Okay come on - then I write my piece about Palestine on Diwali 2024!
Is this not another example of how Caroline generates activity in me?
Caroline in Constantinople in the 370s / Rome in the 380s?
Thinking about Caroline and its clairvoyant effects upon my mind:
Theory: the act of emailing Caroline gave me a clairvoyant capacity to enter a dream world where I was Jayavarman and she was Princess Anna: I didn’t bring back a record, but the memory stuck and led to my Princess Anna post
Now I get it: the flash of green light! I did see Claire in the trees in 2004! 2004 - the year I was crying out in agony. Caroline saved me the next year. That’s what she does with her presence.
The real reason why Saraswati guided me to auburn hills was so I’d meet Caroline and have those two years with her:
lol. 2004. Apparently I can’t do math.
even so - from when the dream is? lol 😂
Is this not further evidence that I actually entered a dream world where I saw Caroline as Princess Anna and lived a life as Jayavarman searching for her? Just as I did with Daniella?
Another correlation - I read about religion right after emailing Caroline
Holy shit: my reading habits after I email Caroline literally build up to my princess anna and Jayavarman post, not to mention my high priestess of Babylon posts. Face the facts: Caroline is Princess Anna.
I’m not just writing my way to Caroline: I’m reading my way to Caroline
Caroline the noblewoman in Rome? (Caroline not just as princess anna but as another princess in Constantinople in the 370s and Rome in the 380s)
When I stepped into another world and saw Caroline
reading of “love is a feeling that arises when”
three months of my Caroline dream world (July - September 2020)
Caroline, the imaginary friend in my mind: the mere thought of Caroline makes me love myself
August, Caroline, and me — Snowflakeangelbutterfly, Daniella, and subdivisions
How Caroline transformed my relationship with Christianity
My descent into delusion when I lost Caroline
the fall makes me think of Caroline. It’s no wonder I was so consumed by love for Claire when I was there in the upper peninsula: these feelings were for Caroline, who is always with me beneath those beautiful fall leaves.
love is when her skin touches mine and i am looking into the lights that are shining in the sky
love is when i look into her sparkling eyes and i see the true reality
love is when i realize:
there is nothing inside my soul i wouldn’t tell her
love is when i have this sense: relationships don’t matter. marriage doesn’t matter. the future doesn’t matter. love will turn me into a nihilist: love will remind me of my own oblivion. love will reassure me that i don’t care what happens to me anymore because i am so happy: for her.
whether i kiss her: doesn’t matter. whether she wants to marry me: doesn’t matter. whether there’s any hope of even going on a date: doesn’t matter.
what matters: the microsecond when her skin touches mine.
what matters: sitting fifteen feet away from her.
when her skin touches mine for a fraction of a microsecond,
i am reminded of one simple fact:
i cannot honestly look anyone else in the face and say,
“you are the one for me.”
when she’s sitting fifteen feet away from me,
she’s the only person there.
no matter who i meet, no matter what i do, no matter where i am, she will be in the back of my mind.
love is a feeling that arises when she enters into my mind.
