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December 13, 2024

grace: enjoying life in the guest room (audio) (a short story -- fiction)

17, 18, 19: Eloise, Phoebe, Claire; Star, Moon, Sun; new recording 420: soul merge 💞

December 8, 2024

17, 18, 19: Eloise, Phoebe, Claire; Star, Moon, Sun; new recording 420: soul merge 💞

17 and me:

Keith Jelinek: his charismatic force, his Costco liquor, and the medallion in the depths of his closet which shows his possible links to a racist organization

November 21, 2024

Keith Jelinek: his charismatic force, his Costco liquor, and the medallion in the depths of his closet which shows his possible links to a racist organization

meaning of black butterfly? (1113)

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this whole incident a result of Phoebe Bridgers ethereally manipulating Keith Jelinek?

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did I teach my dad how to do this?

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keith Jelinek, termite flagellate:

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you’re ENTIRE life was WORTHLESS Keith Jelinek:

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I used you Keith / you were literally nothing in this story but mister money bags

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Fuck you Keith Jelinek:

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Black butterfly symbol ?

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keith jelinek of ankura consulting (my dad): his hatred for black people, his passion for destruction, his need to dominate his family

November 19, 2024

keith jelinek of ankura consulting (my dad): his hatred for black people, his passion for destruction, his need to dominate his family

when I was a child and summoned a demon, did I summon my dad? and did he implant something demonic inside me in that moment?

November 21, 2024

did I summon my dad?

the quest to become the redwood reader

December 13, 2024

for so long i struggled to be the ultimate reader and i agonized over the question:

photography: fall in the upper peninsula

August 27, 2024

photography: fall in the upper peninsula

i love taking photographs, but i’ve never really shared them with the world. i am just thrilled to have found a space where i can share these moments in nature.

Sky Spirits: Reading Outside in Late May — dedicated to my Grandma Judee (June 4, 2022, the severed branch)

November 25, 2024

Sky Spirits: Reading Outside in Late May — dedicated to my Grandma Judee (June 4, 2022, the severed branch)

Above: A view from a hike in the Upper Peninsula (photo my own)

I made a wish for Tara to help you:

you're never fucking muting me again (an open letter)

September 14, 2024

you're never fucking muting me again (an open letter)

“he didn’t even know you came out: he muted you years ago.”

How bad these people fucked me up (new recording 1104)

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https://www.latimes.com/archives/la-xpm-1995-06-18-mn-14557-story.html

This too? Phoebe

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I love you Phoebe

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Private for now:

Thank you Princess Nokia (2:38 am, December 28, 2024)

my house: a sacred place for me and claire (first snow)

November 19, 2024

my house: a sacred place for me and claire (first snow)

Thanksgiving: I give thanks for Claire ❤️

November 28, 2024

Thanksgiving: I give thanks for Claire ❤️

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the night I walked through the woods and cried out for Claire/Caroline💚

November 16, 2024

the night I walked through the woods and cried out for Claire/Caroline💚

love is a feeling that arises when Caroline enters my mind (Naomi Novik?) (the notebook: about Caroline?) (Full Moon) (Dharma Eye) (Caroline: Princess Anna of Byzantium) (Caroline the Goddess Tara)

December 16, 2024

love is a feeling that arises when Caroline enters my mind (Naomi Novik?) (the notebook: about Caroline?) (Full Moon) (Dharma Eye) (Caroline: Princess Anna of Byzantium) (Caroline the Goddess Tara)

is Naomi Novik writing stories about us ?

first love: a novella (recording complete) (paywall removed)

December 12, 2024

first love: a novella (recording complete) (paywall removed)

Claire and I: Natasha and Prince Andrey? (am I a reincarnation of Leo Tolstoy?)

December 14, 2024

Claire and I: Natasha and Prince Andrey? (am I a reincarnation of Leo Tolstoy?)

the reason why I read war and peace is to be with Natasha:

I love you so fucking much Princess Nokia (2:19 am est, December 28, 2024)

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keith Jelinek Diwali correlations:

ants versus butterflies — a demonstration? (3:34 am est, December 28, 2024) (yes this topic was in the news but Keith does not publish frequently)

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identity drones: doomed forever to perform

August 24, 2024

identity drones: doomed forever to perform

Identity drone case study:

how india changed me

October 7, 2024

experience abroad transforms us: this much is obvious. when we step into other cultures and learn about them, we recognize how much of our own culture is a fabrication used to dominate and control us. we see people living their lives according to totally different norms and habits: we realize that the way we…

Keith Jelinek:

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The nature of Keith’s changes since India (12:30 am, December 28, 2024)

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Ants versus Butterflies? (12:36 am, December 28, 2024)

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Parallel / Opposite transformations in the run up to Durga puja 2024? (12:55 est, December 28, 2024)

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im a goddess (new recording 1089)

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Keith Jelinek: what happened when he looked into the fire in varanasi? Maybe nothing, but I wanted to share some details. (Audio fixed: I had the fan on lol)

November 21, 2024

Keith Jelinek: what happened when he looked into the fire in varanasi? Maybe nothing, but I wanted to share some details. (Audio fixed: I had the fan on lol)

It was after looking into the fire that my dad started hinting that he wants to be president.

now i feel more sure: something happened to keith jelinek in varanasi

November 22, 2024

now i feel more sure: something happened to keith jelinek in varanasi

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Has my dad Keith Jelinek been trying to kill me? Observations (4:43 pm updated)

October 19, 2024

Has my dad Keith Jelinek been trying to kill me? Observations (4:43 pm updated)

Now that I have finally seen my dad in terms of his full evil, I am left wondering about a few events from my life in the last few years.

did my dad’s cousins implant something evil into him during one of their basement rituals?

December 8, 2024

did my dad’s cousins implant something evil into him during one of their basement rituals?

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when I was a child and summoned a demon, did I summon my dad? and did he implant something demonic inside me in that moment?

November 21, 2024

did I summon my dad?

the men who control international capital embody the demonic nature (reading / commentary: Bhagavad Gita Chapter 16) (audio)

November 22, 2024

the men who control international capital embody the demonic nature (reading / commentary: Bhagavad Gita Chapter 16) (audio)

I love you Claire and Phoebe (22:14, December 27, 2024 — time for McDonald’s 💖)

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journey to the big dipper (the severed branch #31, september 19, 2022)

November 24, 2024

journey to the big dipper (the severed branch #31, september 19, 2022)

I will never be able to express what this means to me: it was true what I felt; I was looking for someone. I thought I was deluded. ❤️

in Dublin, learning to travel reflectively (and embracing the artistic path) (November 7, 2022)

November 25, 2024

in Dublin, learning to travel reflectively (and embracing the artistic path) (November 7, 2022)

Saraswati, Ireland, and Me: Saraswati Puja 2019/2022, Diwali 2021/2022, and the severed branch (plus, how “Ireland: a nation reborn in an angelic womb” emerged from my relationship with Saraswati)

November 29, 2024

Saraswati, Ireland, and Me: Saraswati Puja 2019/2022, Diwali 2021/2022, and the severed branch (plus, how “Ireland: a nation reborn in an angelic womb” emerged from my relationship with Saraswati)

still doubting? Even the Ireland essay itself was written in proximity to Saraswati puja 2022:

ireland: a nation reborn in an angelic womb (how art can transform an entire society)

November 23, 2024

ireland: a nation reborn in an angelic womb (how art can transform an entire society)

in Dublin, learning to travel reflectively (and embracing the artistic path) (November 7, 2022)

November 25, 2024

venturing backward: responsibility (april 2012; written November 28, 2014)

December 12, 2024

venturing backward: responsibility (april 2012; written November 28, 2014)

my house: a sacred place for me and claire (first snow)

November 19, 2024

2024:

from toward bottom of above post:

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a double demonstration of the ethereal reality and a non-player character — robots are among us! beware! 🤖🦾 (8:24 am, December 25, 2024) (Claire loves me! 💖) (Phoebe takes me naked in Estonia! 🌟)

December 24, 2024

a double demonstration of the ethereal reality and a non-player character — robots are among us! beware! 🤖🦾 (8:24 am, December 25, 2024) (Claire loves me! 💖) (Phoebe takes me naked in Estonia! 🌟)

an altar to claire (new recording 22) — altar used/tended to, 08:36 est 11/14/2024 (10 videos) (foraging) (prayer to Tara) (moon walk) (emoji offering) (Juna reflection) (Claire’s vow) (travel)

November 11, 2024

an altar to claire (new recording 22) — altar used/tended to, 08:36 est 11/14/2024 (10 videos) (foraging) (prayer to Tara) (moon walk) (emoji offering) (Juna reflection) (Claire’s vow) (travel)

My haters possessed by Phoebe until I started my blog? (19:00 est, December 27, 2024)

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The quest for full lucidity (18:53 est, December 27, 2024)

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Soulmates: Emily Brontë and Leo Tolstoy (Phoebe - Charlotte Brontë?) (Claire: influences me to apply to a job in Brooklyn, register for races, and declare my love for her just 8 years after a song)

December 15, 2024

Soulmates: Emily Brontë and Leo Tolstoy (Phoebe - Charlotte Brontë?) (Claire: influences me to apply to a job in Brooklyn, register for races, and declare my love for her just 8 years after a song)

Phoebe in my parents’ house? Phoebe and I swirled up together at my parents’ house??? My journey to the Big Dipper trip LITERALLY brought me to Emily Brontë (6:46 est, December 27, 2024) (not sure on who paid for car rental - still trip to my Dad’s house correlates with Punisher)

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the men who control international capital embody the demonic nature (reading / commentary: Bhagavad Gita Chapter 16) (audio)

November 22, 2024

phoebe bridgers and the music that blossomed my queerness (retrospective diary: 2021-2024) (audio: new recording 18; edited Friday 12/13, 13:57 est)

September 11, 2024

phoebe bridgers and the music that blossomed my queerness (retrospective diary: 2021-2024) (audio: new recording 18; edited Friday 12/13, 13:57 est)

more retrospective diaries:

Soulmates: Emily Brontë and Leo Tolstoy (Phoebe - Charlotte Brontë?) (Claire: influences me to apply to a job in Brooklyn, register for races, and declare my love for her just 8 years after a song)

December 15, 2024

short stories & novelettes

daniella: my 2019 novel ❤️ (recording complete) (scroll to second half for novel 💖)

December 4, 2024

daniella: my 2019 novel ❤️ (recording complete) (scroll to second half for novel 💖)

Daniella extract:

(Holy Trinity) Daniella: 5 year incubation period confirmed? (Eloise Rising: Phoebe and Claire working upon me in terms of 8, 7, 3, 5; plus — parallels with the Brontë sisters and Tolstoy)

December 24, 2024

(Holy Trinity) Daniella: 5 year incubation period confirmed? (Eloise Rising: Phoebe and Claire working upon me in terms of 8, 7, 3, 5; plus — parallels with the Brontë sisters and Tolstoy)

I love you Caroline! I hope you’re having a merry Christmas! 💖

5 lucy dacus songs to process religious trauma

August 21, 2024

5 lucy dacus songs to process religious trauma

“christine”

Lucy loves me too? (17:08 est, December 27, 2024)

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now I see: my dreams have come true — I’m so swirled up with Boygenius and they led me to liberation… to Claire! 💖 (17:35 est, December 27, 2024)

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A tattoo implants Phoebe/Claire into my dreams??? (17:01 est, December 27, 2024)

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(magic t-shirt) (boygenius dream link) (princess relena) (the hidden people are real!) dream correlations: 2022-2024 (predicting my father’s defeat? phoebe and claire in my dreams? lucidity achieved?)

December 22, 2024

(magic t-shirt) (boygenius dream link) (princess relena) (the hidden people are real!) dream correlations: 2022-2024 (predicting my father’s defeat? phoebe and claire in my dreams? lucidity achieved?)

confirmation: my tattoos spinning my Big Dipper dreams??? And my experiences outside the simulation during my 2022 trip?? (16:45 est, December 27, 2024)

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Waiting Room: Phoebe, the sea, and me

December 1, 2024

escape the simulation: 10 pure lands (new recording 24)

November 11, 2024

escape the simulation: 10 pure lands (new recording 24)

I love you Erika!!! And I love the bats in your apartment! 💖 (in my apartment)*

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Eloise-Phoebe soul swirl confirmed!!! Born together under Scorpio skies 💖💖💖

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(Scorpio Skies) Kali Manifest? diwali 2019 — i write the sacrifice scene in Daniella

December 20, 2024

(Scorpio Skies) Kali Manifest? diwali 2019 — i write the sacrifice scene in Daniella

Is this what you mean Phoebe? I hope so 💖 (16:52 est, December 23, 2024)

short stories & novelettes

daniella: my 2019 novel ❤️ (recording complete) (scroll to second half for novel 💖)

December 4, 2024

👻

My baby shower

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Soulmates: Emperor Aurelian and Empress Zenobia (tarot!) (Santa?) (Sol Invictus) (Eloise: Constantine?) (Claire: Jane Austen?) (Phoebe in Estonia: a portal) (I love you Princess Nokia!!! 💖) Estonia💞

December 23, 2024

Soulmates: Emperor Aurelian and Empress Zenobia (tarot!) (Santa?) (Sol Invictus) (Eloise: Constantine?) (Claire: Jane Austen?) (Phoebe in Estonia: a portal) (I love you Princess Nokia!!! 💖) Estonia💞

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Did Saraswati help my in laws pick their house? How I ended up living in a teenage girl bedroom (posted from the lake in East Grand Rapids)

November 30, 2024

Did Saraswati help my in laws pick their house? How I ended up living in a teenage girl bedroom (posted from the lake in East Grand Rapids)

Above: Boygenius in Queens, June 2023

Voiceover portion:

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Phoenix Tattoo (2013)

Purchased on phone during frontier ruckus show in Lansing:

the kushan empire demonstrates the wiggly reality (a fusion of “east” and “west”)

November 24, 2024

the kushan empire demonstrates the wiggly reality (a fusion of “east” and “west”)

Next: special thank you to Craig Benjamin, my bodhisattva of history ❤️ (never met him ❤️)

Durham Tattoo (2022)

#30: This Way to Floor G (Dream Report: September 12, 2022, the severed branch)

November 25, 2024

#30: This Way to Floor G (Dream Report: September 12, 2022, the severed branch)

Above: Long Beach, Washington (photo my own)

identity drones: doomed forever to perform

August 24, 2024

Identity drone case study:

Seattle tattoo (2024)

you're never fucking muting me again (an open letter)

September 14, 2024

“he didn’t even know you came out: he muted you years ago.”

butterflies

August 1, 2024

when i am feeling angry, i like to stroke my butterflies with my fingertips and i like to feel how the pink one rests upon my chest. my butterflies are all over: dangling from the brightly colored bracelets on my wrists, jingling together as i walk down the street, fluttering freely while i run my hands through my hair.