Why has my dad Keith Jelinek been tracking me? Observations (updated 1:19 pm est 11/5/2024)

A pattern of experiences causes me to wonder what my dad has been up to since 2020: he’s been putting trackers in my things, and the cars

read the above:

this contains background information for how my dad has treated me

music saved me:

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phoebe bridgers and the music that blossomed my queerness (retrospective diary: 2021-2024)

clairo, buddhism, nyc, and queerhood (retrospective diary: 2019-2024)

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10 olivia rodrigo songs that mean so much to me

wet leg: these girls taught me how to have fun and be confused after dispensing with my haters

5 sabrina carpenter songs that got me through rejection, loss, and heartbreak

beabadoobee: she wrote my heart out (updated at bottom 21:38 est 11/3/24)

claire elizabeth cottrill: the exit from smoke signals and the love of my life

grand rapids 10/30/24

halloween, grand rapids, buffy, the u.k., and the nightmare of the byzantine empire

grand rapids, my new home: reflections & photographs

grand rapids 11/5/2024

“There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free, there is neither male nor female; for you are all one in Christ Jesus.”

(Galatians 3:28, NKJV)

the propagation of teenage girl music as the antidote to american capitalism

butterfly rising #3: fuck israel, fuck the new york times, fuck fundamentalist "christianity", and FREE PALESTINE

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(The requested mental health treatment program was recently completed over 9 days of intensive care (satisfying & deeply affirming care — they helped me overcome my fear of my father and learn to finally and truly love myself) at Forest View Hospital, and my wife has access to my records)

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the following was written when i was in a state of extreme fear, for which i received voluntary mental health services over the course of 9 days at forest view hospital. my records have been mailed to my wife and lawyer. for the latest, listen to the audio recording.

i see now: my dad isn’t necessarily a criminal mastermind. i’ve met so many people all across michigan dealing with the same psychopathic parents who have rejected them for their “behavior” after they came out.

all across michigan and all across america, boomers are turning their children to the streets for being queer.

boomers: the boxes are real to them (updated 19:13 est — audio voiceover: new recording / additional detail)

the inevitable decline of the boomer mind

boomer culture: a brief gallery of their memes

the time has come to deal with the boomers.

here is what i wrote about my dad when i was scared for my life before treatment.

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original post

Now that I have finally seen my dad in terms of his full evil, I am left wondering about a few events from my life in the last few years.

In Fall 2020, just after I had moved into their house during Covid, my girlfriend and I took my dad’s red jeep for a drive to the UP. The jeep had no signs of issues, although it was old: suddenly it starts smoking out the back for no reason and I’m pulled over by a cop who then sends me on my way and suggests I get the car looked at. Then we are we driving late at night through the lower peninsula, the tires start going flat; my girlfriend and I barely make it to a gas station where she takes command of the situation because I am freaking out.

Then, in Fall 2023, my wife and I again go to Marquette for a few weeks. I am using my Dad’s BMW which has JUST been serviced at the BMW in Bloomfield Hills. Suddenly, right before my wife and I are about to drive back, the engine is overheating! We drove and drove through the night with our baby: the local auto shop said there was absolutely no sign of anything wrong with the vehicle, and he said personally he’d drive it back to Bloomfield Hills and get it checked out. But he wouldn’t be worried, he said, to drive it.

He was wrong. We barely made it back. Multiple times throughout the night the engine was shutting down and we needed to pull over to the side of the highway with our baby in the back — repeatedly throughout the night, every 3-4 minutes in the dark, the most terrifying experience of my life — until now.

This time, before I drove to the UP in the fall, I was worried given the recent past and the fact that my car, purchased from Carvana with money from my parents (I told you these people invested a lot of money in me lol) recently, had just been in a corporate auto shop.

weird thing: the queer people at the local auto shop told me there was NO RECORD of my car ever having been in any auto shop recently!!!! They reviewed everything and, having had these people reassure me and fix the issues, I drove to the UP and back without issue.

Tell me this daddy:

What would have happened if I didn’t let those queer people look at my car?

And why has my dad been so adamant I put Simplisafe cameras in my home? Why the disappointment when I went no cameras and switched to Ring?

And why do my Chase credit cards keep getting declined randomly for the first time in 8 years?

And what’s the deal with the sewage that flooded my wife and i’s brand new apartment 4 times in 2 weeks?

Is all of this why when I was evicted from my home, you gave me 900 bucks, told me there was nothing more you could do for me, and criticized me for not immediately finding an apartment?

Is this why mom immediately blocked me on Facebook after I ditched your location tracker on the side of the highway once a man asked me for jumper cables, thus reminding me it was there? Or did she block me because I closed my Verizon number, got a new one, and you couldn’t follow me anymore?

You REALLY wanted my new address didn’t you?

And why did your attempts to kill me really take off when I was in your basement rediscovering my love for music and on the verge of finding Phoebe???

Did you know something was happening in the world that threatened your interests?

Did you know I was a part of it?

Is that the real reason why you really really wanted me to try a sample of your Athletic Greens just a few weeks ago? What were you going to put in it?

Or is all of this just because in 2020 I told you u wouldn’t vote for you if you ran for president? You were so bitter daddy.

Tell me this daddy:

My car got towed from the motel last night. Do you know what I’m talking about daddy? What are they doing with my car right now?

I’ll never touch that car again dad.

Everything you’ve ever touched: get it away from me forever.

You are not safe.

You are fucking evil.

You can keep the car.

Did I not mention I’m in love with someone?

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“Excuse me, you whack ass bitches
I need y'all to know, it's no competition, bitch
You could never, bitch
You see me? And you see you?
Brat-dat-dat-dat!

Look at me, so clean, no effort
Ponytail, ripped jeans, no effort
Face clean, gold ring, no effort
Insane, my chain big pressure
Look at me, so clean, no effort
Ponytail, ripped jeans, no effort
Face clean, gold ring, no effort
Insane, my chain big pressure

I don't like diamonds much and I think rappers suck
I'm in the ice cream truck, I got the ice creams on
I just cheech and chong, baby rip the bong
Marc Jacobs shirt with the sequin thong
It's a hot girl summer and I pulled up on my bike
It's a wet hot summer and I feel like cherry pie
Get a threesome going 'cause you know that's what I like
It's a all-girl party and they fuckin' right outside

Wet hot summer, wet hot summer
Going everywhere, I'm a track star runner
Subi on the jeans, I'm a mad hot stunna
I'm a Bape star girl and these boys all bummers
Boys all funny, I don't want no pause
Take five steps from me with a playboy heart
I'm the UFO in the sky with stars
Put the Tripp pants on, come fuck with this art

Look at me, so clean, no effort
Ponytail, ripped jeans, no effort
Face clean, gold ring, no effort
Insane, my chain big pressure
Look at me, so clean, no effort
Ponytail, ripped jeans, no effort
Face clean, gold ring, no effort
Insane, my chain big pressure

What the fuck these bitches want?
I ain't got shit for them
These bitches is still basic like they shop on Fordham
These bitches is still basic with the ten spot dress
These bitches is still basic in they rainbow best
If you think you doin' somethin' I think the fuck not
I'll put you on blast and blow up ya spot
I'll blow off ya top and make you all drop

If dick was your mouth, these bitches would suck cock
I been parting off the waters when the waves get hot
Ain't no other bitch like me that could take my spot
When I hit the stage runnin', bitches panties drop
I been signin' boobs, call 'em tater tots
And in case you wonderin' I'm from Harlem, babe
I'm the diplomat girl with the Harlem shake
I'm on first ave, gang, we at Hajji's, babe
You don't know me, Nena, you just know my name

Look at me, so clean, no effort
Ponytail, ripped jeans, no effort
Face clean, gold ring, no effort
Insane, my chain big pressure
Look at me, so clean, no effort
Ponytail, ripped jeans, no effort
Face clean, gold ring, no effort
Insane, my chain big pressure

No-no-no effort
(My chain big pressure)
Look at me, no effort (look at me)
Ponytail, no effort (ponytail)
Face clean, no effort (face clean)
No-no-no effort (effort, effort, effort...)”

“I do what I wanna do
I say what I wanna say, when I feel, and I
Look in the mirror and know I'm there
With my hands in the air, I'm proud to say yeah
I'm real, I'm real, I'm really, really, real
I'm real, I'm real, I'm really, really, real
I'm real, I'm real, I'm really, really, real
I'm real, I'm real ('cause before you know it, everything's gone)

"Alright, that's all I wanted to tell you
Just make sure you call us back when you get this message
Here go your mom"
"Boy, you better have my car on full all this time
You done had my damn car, but look, I ain't trippin'
Look, the neighbors say they seen you and your little friends over there by Food for Less
And they was preaching to you over there telling you about the good book
Because right about now that's what y'all need

Oh, and Top Dawg called the house too
I guess they want you and Dave to come to the studio
But look, you take that music business serious
And put out something me and your dad can step to
Shit, you know we from Chicago, you know that's what we do"

Sing my song, it's all for you
Sing my song, it's all for you
Sing my song, it's all for you
Sing my song, it's all for you
Sing my song, it's all for you
Sing my song, it's all for you
Sing my song, it's all for you
Sing my song, it's all for you

Sing my song, it's all for you
Sing my song, it's all for you
Sing my song, it's all for you
Sing my song, it's all for you
Sing my song, it's all for you
Sing my song, it's all for you
Sing my song, it's all for you
Sing my song, it's all for you”

“I stumble and I'm in
You fit me with those angel wings
Send me gold, set me high
Set it up while I'm in the sky

The storm is gone (and the storm is gone)
And the temperature's high (and the temperature's high)
And delight is dining (and delight is dining)
At my table

'Til I think how, how, how, how lucky we are
Angel at my table, God in my car
Get it at sea, take a ship
I'd christen her victory, she'd make it

Victory
Victory

Come on, boys, let's push it hard
You bump down, push your motor car
Come on, boys, you've done us proud
You sweat, dig, I'll mop it right off your brow

Victory
Victory

Victory
Victory

'Til the storm is gone ('til the storm is gone)
And the temperature's high (and the temperature's high)
And delight is dining (and delight is dining)
At my table

'Til the storm is gone ('til the storm is gone)
And the temperature's high (and the temperature's high)
And delight is dining (and delight is dining)
At my table”

Queer Safe Spaces, Being Our Most Authentic Selves, and Boomer Americanism.

Hop out the furnace
Took years and it was worth it
Yeah, I been burnin'
Comin' out top of the vermin
I been out searchin'
Stay out if it ain't urgent
On top of the hill, I relax
Hot wheels when I come swervin'

Never put a limit, I'ma get what I desire
Read the inner energy, you dealin' with some fire
All up in the entity, ain't no better remedy
Life blows, I won't let it be the enemy
A target, you can see I'm not a Kennedy
I got a grip on the scene so they friendin' me, frettin' me
Then they turn into my frenemies
A new day, another person feeling jealousy

That shit's gettin' straight old
But my worth get better like gold
Now my work great, greater than most
More bread, more heat, that's toast
Now I'm playing shows on a different coast
Grateful, waking up, I be gettin' calls
Can't touch me, Hammer MC
Can't stop that fire in me
Hundred degrees, ooh

Hop out the furnace
Took years and it was worth it
Yeah, I been burnin'
Comin' out top of the vermin
I been out searchin'
Stay out if it ain't urgent
On top of the hill, I relax
Hot wheels when I come swervin'

Hop out the furnace
Took years and it was worth it
Yeah, I been burnin'
Comin' out top of the vermin
I been out searchin'
Stay out if it ain't urgent
On top of the hill, I relax
Hot wheels when I come swervin'

Known to be working with fire
Fourth of July, light up the sky
Came and I did what I said I would do
Blood on my shoes, pardon my moves
I'm on the roof, bodies are piling up under the booth
Probably a hater that said I would lose
Probably an A&R hating the views

By any means, I attack
There is no leash on my back (no)
So I unleash all my wrath
Leaving their limbs unattached
Pass, pass, pass, add a little gas
Add a little more, light another match
Oh, she gonna blow, read it all in caps
Chokehold, I would never tap

I was cold, cold
Back then, they ain't ever wanna see me grow (grow), grow (grow)
Took a minute, I stared deep in my soul (soul), soul (soul)
Caterpillar, now a butterfly with the doors (doors), doors (doors)
Last year was weird, now we're doing gold

Hop out the furnace
Took years and it was worth it
Yeah, I been burnin'
Comin' out top of the vermin
I been out searchin'
Stay out if it ain't urgent
On top of the hill, I relax
Hot wheels when I come swervin'

Hop out the furnace
Took years and it was worth it
Yeah, I been burnin'
Comin' out top of the vermin
I been out searchin'
Stay out if it ain't urgent
On top of the hill, I relax
Hot wheels when I come swervin'

Catch me if you can:

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butterfly rising #3: fuck israel, fuck the new york times, fuck fundamentalist "christianity", and FREE PALESTINE